I'm back, bitches!!!
A little crass, I know, but since nobody is reading this, nor was anyone waiting for me to be "back," I think I can pretty much say whatever the fuck I want haha.
It's crazy to read through some of my old shit and see the kinds of things I thought about... I feel like I was always kinda hypersensitive to my own self. Since high school, the summation of all my entries basically run like "damn, I'm like this... no wait, I'm likethat... holy shit! I'm soooo this!" And so on and so forth. Not to say that I didn't ever have anything substantive to say, but in general everything was just so self-absorbed. And it's extra weird now because I don't really think so hard about how I am anymore, at least as far as self-identity. I do think about how I may be acting towards those around me, and how it may be affecting them, but as far as the different facets of my own personality... meh. I feel pretty secure in my own skin now (and perhaps this was not so much the case in past years), so it just seems like a moot exercise to think about whether I'm a funny guy, or an extravert or an introvert, or what-have-you.
One random thought that comes to mind about how much life has changed from college is how when you get older, you really have to be deliberate about creating the experiences that you want. When you're in school, you can just coast through everything and you still get engulfed in the wave of experience that is adolescence and young adulthood, and you really can't help but meet tons of people and do a lot of things you didn't think you would. After you've been in the working world a few years, situations don't just sweep you up like that. You have to decide that you enjoy ___, and then go seek after that and try to attain those experiences. If you don't, you end up just going to work everyday, eating and shitting, and watching TV in the evening and maybe drinking your sorrows away. Not to say I don't do my share of working, eating, shitting, and watching TV, but I'm aware enough to know that if you aren't careful, your entire working life can slip away without you even noticing until it's too late.
Anyway, enough rambling. Hopefully I can use this to keep track of some thoughts, write about experiences, and post pics of cool stuff Gloria and I do. Hooray lol.
